Well, tomorrow is the day for Comlabs Assistant's announcement. Well, i'm trying not to be hoping too much since i don't want to be disappointed that much because i don't want to be that much depressed for now. Well, just praying for the best. : )
Okay getting in the post title, social scar, it's about a paradigm shift. Yes, i think for/since now, i won't get too close with someone again. It's not like i want to or will be an anti-social kind of people, it's just i will think twice about someone social degree in my social hierarchy. yes.
There are two main cause for this shift. The first i believe i already wrote that in my previous-previous posts. I really hate being used and forgotten. Which makes me thinking twice for considering someone so highly above my friends. And the second one is because the "squared society" in my faculty. Yes i know my faculty is the one which has the fewest students. But even the 121 students have their own affair and interest which makes them gather with people in the same interest. Okay i know there is nothing wrong with that.
So, about the second cause, at first,i didn't want to admit it. The Squared Society. I always think positively about everyone can blend together. But in the end, i realized that it was such a bullshit. Yes. In my humblest opinion, even i, an easygoing kind of person, is having a hard time to enter different social circle. It's too different world and everybody ended up with their ego and always prioritizing themselves. It's really different from highschool. Actually, a bit confession here, some time ago, a friend(?) of mine, because he was forcing his ego to do what he really wanted but not all people wanted, he drags people to what he's going to do and in the end all people had to took the consequences which actually didn't had to happen if he do that thing by private. well im sure we're getting nowhere because i'm tryin to complicate things so people who know this case didn't realize what's going on. I'm doing this because i'm listening to an old friend of mine to more subtle things here if i wanted to write something like this.
Well, i think that's it. So in the end, i think i won't getting that pumped up anymore with communicating with people since i'm going to think more about myself. Yes, being self-centered isn't that bad i presume?
Oh a little random fact, my bestie, bagia, just got a motorcycle accident and his kneecap is perforated and he said he can see his bone. Okay that is so scary and i can't even imagine it. And a thing which i hate very much is that i only can pray for him to get well really soon.
Another random fact, i just installed the tweetdeck in my laptop. Follow me @daretoreal. i don't really care though since i don't really fancy to follow strangers.
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