Bedtime Wishes

Lately, before i go to sleep, i usually held my hands together in front of my face. Strange huh? Well, to be honest, i'm thinking about she-who-i-really-hoped-to-be-my-future-wife. I just can't stand this feelings. I don't want to say it yet, that this is a love, because i'm not really sure about this. When i closed my eyes, in wishing to my holding hands, i made some wishes.

I want to hold her hand every time we go to bed

I want to cuddle her every night as we go to sleep

I want to smell her vaguely-shampoo-smelled-hair before we close our eyes

I want to protect her from anything after we wake up

I want to lend her my shoulder when she have to shed her tears

I want to spend all the rest of my life with her before god separate us ...

Well, i know these are really-silly-wishes since i even haven't reach my 20s but i already thinking about those things. I'm not that kind of romantic person, but i do promise one thing that i won't cheat on someone i already put her in my life line. Dear you, i can't tell you my feelings yet because i still not sure about what will i becoming in 10 years. I don't even know if my feelings will still be the same. I won't know what happen to you in 10 years later, either you already have your choice, or even i can't see you anymore. I just can wish, for the best, because i'm sure god knows which is the best for each one of us.