Last night, i don't know why, but when i wake up this morning i think i just got a paradigm shift. i call it a paradigm shift because at that time, my way of thinking about something just changed suddenly without any reason. i don't really remember how many times i had a paradigm shift in my life. But as far as i can think, i think it's like a checkpoint in life where you can accept a thing previously you can't.
I remember a paradigm shift. I really really sleepy, about 2 am. it was when i started living in bandung. suddenly i feel very refreshed and can't sleep. I remember that before 2am, im still can't forget about my highschool life but suddenly after that, i just can leave it.
And now, this morning a paradigm shift occur to me. I know it's a crucial change. it's the way i think of friends in this college life. well, actually now i had some fight with pajar. and we haven't talked for about 2 weeks. before this paradigm shift, i really want to make up with him. but now, i don't really care anymore. i think this paradigm shift lead me to the future me. yes, so i don't have to think to much about my surrounding. less attentive is the best word i could think up.
And the conclusion is, i think i'll be less attentive and more closed to public after this paradigm shift. though, friend should be few but good and i think it's pointless to try get close with someone in this college life. a connection only. that's it. i don't have to be close friend. just a close connection.
I remembered, a phares which my highschool's english teacher said : Stand on your own power and life is a journey. a phares which i'll never forget although when i was at highschool i really mocked it. :p
